May 14, 2014 - "To Be Back."
This photo represents a few things for me, and it's not anything like depression or loneliness, but an alternate perspective on those sort of things (I guess you could say).
As most people know, I'm back at home for the summer. Yet as nice as it is to be done with school for a break and have no homework for 4 months, coming back home was hard. Not that anything about home is bad, I love my family and I'm glad to see them again. But that I've moved a lot in my life and moving away from home was one of the most interesting and greatest feelings. I merely wish to come to a point in life where I don't have to move my stuff anymore. Where I can live in my own home (but I guess I'm far from that now!)
At least now, being home, it shows me what life I left behind. I haven't had anyone over except family, therefore I've realized I have no close friends here, and distance really faded a lot of the friends I had left. I created new bonds and very close bonds with my friends from APU and of course I miss them now.
But in this photo I feel like it shows that although I'm back, I'm alone in my passions again, I spend most days sleeping in and hanging around the house while my sister and mom are at work half of each day. It helps me appreciate yet again my decision to go to University and change my life.
So although I sort of feel this way now, I'll look forward to what the summer could also bring when the traveling can begin and the trips and fun in June, July, or August. May has been a very restful, quiet, back-at-home month for me. Something seems missing, but I'm sure I'll find it again.
God's got this.